I feel lost...

If this is the war of the worlds, then I don't wanna be apart.
Too busy, too busy, too busy to talk, you said I wouldn't know.
Too busy, too busy, too busy to understand it's time to go.

I've been a dick and left coursework till last minute.
I've been a dick and not been true to who I am.
Nobody knows me.
They know certain things, like what I do when nervous and worried , and trying to hide it.
They know what I might say to something.
But actually, I seem to have given you all the wrong impression.

But I will say this, I'm an over possesive freak.
I want MY male friends to stay MY male friends :P
I want MY female friends to keep away from MY male friends.
But they aren't mine.
So, I shouldn't even bother.


Yeh.




Everythings going wrong, and the worlds getting further and further away.
I'm not actually speaking to who you may think here, but
I can't wait to get away from you twats :P

Tbh, a lifetime of solitude, tempting.



I want to stop right here, yet carry on.



I am in no way emo, but do you ever think, well, i don't wanna be an adult, and I don't wanna stay here? Best thing would be to die.
HAhah
I'm not saying I WANT to die. Just everything seems a bit futile when you think it all is going to end anyway.

Yeh I'm a waster.

I should go smoke weed in a park and drink alcohomol. Get off my face, fail at school, and not know whats real and whats not.


get over myself you may say?
YOU CAN PROBABLY TALK.

Tbh, we're all hypocrits. :)
It is what makes life.


Fucks sake. Schools supposed to be the best days of your life.
Well someone just shat all over that statement?
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I feel like a silly pathetic ambitious mess.

Nobody reads my blogs anyway, so nobody will care.
Nobody would anyways.
:)

Ok, Good stuff =
*Jazz and Mee are looking at joining Hockey Team, Rowing Team and Dancey Danceeo.
Good times are ahead :')
*James Bolton's my Bruvva from anuvva muvva. You guys don't seem to like him but he's really nice honest :D
*Year 11, I'm behind on stuff atm, but once thats out the way, I'm gunna tryyy to get ahead. I hope.
*Uhhm. I'm not failing at anything in particular. :) B's and A's. Huzzah.
*Allowed to do snowboarding
* Allowed to go Freeze.
* Saving up for V-Festival with Chalkersss and whoever he invitees. :D
* Yay I made a few friends, well, realised that they were my friends.
* Realised, I have a guy fettish. Yehh.. I genuinely wish I had them all to myself.I mean, only the ones I'm friends with :D Hahaah
*Ok, Maybe thats just being jealous? not in a weird way, just cuz i'm a freak.
* I REALLY WANTTO MAKE AN EFFORT WITHALL OF YOU! You know who you are. Y'know that group. You Guys :) I really wish you all liked me enough to accept me in, but y'know you form a little circle which is impossible to get into, and the moment I do,you all walk away.
Don't deny it.. ahah
Honest to god i'm sorry for being mean or bitchy or whatever, but was just going through a phase. We've all had fucked up lives (some of us anyways to an extent), but if I explained mine, I think you might all be a bit more uhh.. sympathetic to why i'm such a cunt.


Bad Stuff =
*Stalkers. I mean like totally get a life.
* People doing really well in GCSES making others feel bad about those.
* Not being able to really talk to newfoundfriends.
* Temptation. :S
* Cold mornings where you don't wanna wake up :D
* Being a bitch to people you care about...
* Not being 100% Honest with everyone...
* Blanking :(
* Ppeople who you thought were your friends, but change their mood and attitute towards you quickly.
* School in general.


Uh there'smore bad stuff, but i've totally run out of finger engery.
SOUNDS WRONG>

Rephrase: Cba to type anymore..

Ahah
Mydayyzz I need to make better friends with some people :)
i shan't list you, as people reading who are on my 'list' should know or not i s'pose.

It's hard though.. :(

Hmm
HMMM



OMG YEH>
EVERYONE. ICE SKATING NEXT SATURDAY PLZ.
I MEAN EVERYONE :)
YOU ALL GO OUT TO TOWN AND EVEN IF I'M INVITED, I'M ALWAYS BUSY. AND EVEN IF YOU DON'T WANNA TALK TO ME, IF YOU INVITE WHO YOU LIKE, AS IN ANYONE, YOU CAN JUST SKATE OFF WITH THEM.
PLZPLZPLZPLZPLZ
PLZ.
:)
HAPPYFACE.


LOVE YALL.
PLUS, UHhh...
someone needs a crazy party soon. :P

love. x