I used to dream about saving the world

But now I only dream about the holidays.

Oh wintersleep, How I love thee.
Yessir.


Hmm I go away from Blogger for a few days, come back , and there are many blogs for me to read :)
It made me happy. kind of. Everyone else's blogs have more depth to mine. Mine being a selfish, complainy, block of poo.
:D
I'm happyish really.

Sometimes.

Whatever should I write about.
I like the snow :)
Off to see enter shikari (and matt, dan and alexx) :)
Tommorow, so, that should be good in theory I s'pose...

I was ready to write a nice blog, but then I rememberd, I've got alot to do really.
Should revise and do coursework, but I know I'm going to leave that 8 A3 page dt task till the last minute :( I don't have a clue what to do.
Wow I'm sad now. :




Wow.
Blogging mood totally ruined.

what a shitface.

that stupid facebook group about

a relationship being between two people, not the whole world.
is really true.

i just wish some people would realise that..


also,



you're all lucky.
you've all got best friends who you can tell anything to.
i dont.










affafle.

nobody cares.

ahahah whyyyy oh why
did you get involved?
silly poo.


also...

i like how i am.
:)
its different.

pooyourselfinwhiteunderwwear.

omglool

when someone comes up to you and asks you for food.

is it offensive? :
cuz some people get really annoyed.

like

''you only talked to me so you can have some food''

its like, well
i wouldn't ask if i didn't think we were friends, and,

well dont bloody eat it in front of anyone if you didn't wanna share.
alsooo

don't ask others for food then surely?

just.. a thought.
personally
it annoys me when people ask for food, IF they dont ever share it themselves.
ooh its not bad when one person asks, but when one asks, then everyone else does, its like
yeh i'm all for sharing, but do i get any of this food?


also,



man. i HAVE to say this. i mean, i'll make it as gooddaaamn cryptic as possible, but i neeeed to veeentilaate.
nobody cares.
nobody actualy reads my ones ;)
score!


ok,
well, one minute you two are like, olive juice and yes! but now its like, just no.
i don't understand.
don't say things you don't mean...
i mean, you obviously dont have a clue what any of it means do you? :\ so whyyy the hell say it.
you might have been really looking forward to olive juice and yes!
but like, if you don't mean any of it, and just are saying it for the concept, and you aren't certain,
then you should not want to be a part of it at all.
and we shall have to re-evaluate what you and them actually are heading.

different wavelengths and goals are never good.






sigh.
if only i wasn't such a coward :) x

fucksake.


i really need to talk to someone about this,
but honestly

i have nobody that i can.
:S


I mean, someone would maybe talk reason into me?
or maybe the other person.

:

FOR THE LOVE OF FUCK.

So I guess it's farewell to..

most of the christmas holidays.

once again, the one person i couldn't NOT see,
will be busybusybusy.

:(



Goodbye to......
1) Those 3 words, I'm assuming?!
2) That idea.
3) Year 11, as soon, it'll be just revision and exams.
4) 2009. :( double digits soon...
5) thee past.


like, its hard to forget isn't it?
just those silly things that crop up now and again.



maybe one day, i'll write an entirely happy blog.
maybe.



not today.

x

Mm,, read some previous posts
and



just wanna say
I don't hate you all at all.
I'll say I do, but thats just cuz I'm an angry fool.


:

Ignore me.
When I say that, its most likely cuz something little has annoyed me,
and then, once you're annoyed, its hard not to be annoyed at everything else.


I'm sure someone will know what I'm on about...

:)

Love.x

I COULD jump on the bandwagon and like,

write about my friends. but, they know who they are, and they don't need words written about them, plus, i'd feel bad that i missed someone off or something :)
plus, i'd feel weird, if like, i put them on my list, even though we dont talk much, and then they'd bitch or chat about me saying: ''omg why did dani put me on her list. we never talk! eugh.. weirdo''

m.
so i'll write about something else.


Parents.
As much as they annoy me, my guardians are the most laid back people I know.

I'm allowed to go to any party, any gig, anyones house (even boys) and allowed pretty much anyone over, and allowed out at any time.
So, of course what I'm about to say, will be sort of biased, from how I've been raised,

Ok, as I live with my grandparents, perhaps they're easier to get round? as I know my mum wouldn't let me do any of those things, but she'd let me buy and drink alcohol.
Which my nan knows I do, and wouldn't ever buy me alchohol, and dissaproves.
But other than that, i wouldnt be allowed to to go parties, or have boys round, or vice versa.

So, I was wandering, why parents are so shit?!
I mean, surely they were children once, and honestly I'm not being an angsty teenager, I wish they'd listen to you. This goes for teachers as well.
Honest to god they just think we're being purposefully moody, when we're not really.
Most of the time, when you try and have an adult conversation with them, they'll call you pretentiious or think you're being cheeky.

Adults.
I'd love to be a teacher, just so I could be awesome.
anyway
back t orant about parents.
yes.


the amount of times i have heard, oh yeh my mum wouldn't let me. blah blah blah.
well why?
I mean, why are parents so evil?
and why do peoples dads tend to be nicer than peoples mums?:
hm.

I mean, if a parent wont let you out, there isn't really any reason to it. I dont understand

Now, something happened this weekend, which I wont elaborate on, but all the same I got pretty annoyed.
I mean, fairenough, being a mother, it is your house,your rules, your children,
but you cant STOP people from doing anything.
Especially if they weren't doing it in the first place.


You also, cannot impose YOUR views on your child and their friends. It's not right. At 15, we have our own opinoins, and ways in which we're going to go about our lives.
Be a parent, be understanding, have you're little rules, but DO NOT impose views upon us like that.
Have an opinion, but that doesn't mean your children will have the same opinion as you.

I know, it is hard, One minute we need you to hold our hands just to get down the stairs. we want hugs and kisses, and we need help with homework, then, in the blink of an eye,
we're going out on weekends, never talking to you, never giving you hugs, kisses, last minute birthday presents, getting annoyed when you try and tell us off, get annoyed when you try to help us. Essentially, it seems like we only need you for food and shelter now.

That must be hard, seeming as if you're not wanted.
But, surely then, just go with it for now. Teenagers have this sterotype of being moody and stubborn, but its not.
its the bridge to adulthood, finding who we are and what we like.


The mother i'm on about,

i understand, but i don't much agree with your point of view.
Its my life. I'll decide this decision for myself, as at the end of the day, it really is none of your buisness.
what sort of mother does that in the first place.


euuurgh.

ok, i have to do french. yay.
but
thats pretty much my little rant over.


pigfrazzles. :)